The days get better, the hurt is less sharp, but it's never really gone. The anger comes over me when I least expect it and I want to lash out, retaliate. I want to hide under the covers and never come out. When someone says, "how are you?" I want ask, "how do you THINK I am?" People say it'll be okay. Well, it's not and it's not going to be for quite awhile.
How do I get through? I don't know. I'm doing a lot of things out of sheer obedience. I know I can't go hide, I know that walking away from church isn't the right thing, and I know that God is holding on to me...
...so I'm holding on to Him.
"As for God, His way is perfect. The word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for those who take refuge in Him. For who is God besides the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God?" -Psalm 18:30-31
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